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An introduction [02 Jun 2007|02:46pm]

[ mood | anxious ]

I thought it was about time I introduced myself.IMy name is Helen and I am married and am 28.I have been married for 7 years and we have been trying to concieve for most of that.After initial tests we found out that my hubby has low or zero sperm count so we are on the list for IVF. I became an auntie and the worries about how things were going to be with my brother in law and his gf disappeared. Having the baby seems to have made then grow up a bit and we are all getting on really well and we are really involved with my niece Georgia's life which is great.

My health has been up and down lately and my last two sets of blood tests have indicated that I have an upset liver so I have had to have a liver scan and more blood tests which I am waiting for the results of.

Although our house was supposed to be secure we have been given 2 months notice to quit so now we are unsure what our future holds.

After waiting nearly 3 years the good news was we got a letter on the same day to say our date for the initial information evening you get invited to before starting your IVF treatment. Its 19th June. As you can imagine we are excited as we have something to focus on but stressed as to how our future will pan out with finding somewhere to live as the council say we are not classed as homeless until our actual eviction date and then they only legally have to offer you one property which you have to accept no matter what or where it is.

We know we will cope we always do and we have a long journey ahead but we have the support of family and friends which means a lot to us.

I just wish that we could concentrate solely on preparing for the IVF process and not worrying about where we are gonna live as stress will add to the success/failure factor of the treatment.

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OPK ?? [31 Aug 2006|03:52pm]

DH and I have decided to start ttc again. After being on the pill for 3 months I am glad to be off it. I have dug out my basal body thermometer again and am seriously considering buying an OPK but do not know anything about them. Ha I don't even know where they are located at Walmart, I thought they would be in with the condoms but I didn't see any. Also what brands are good and what ones are not? Is it cheaper to buy them off the internet or at the store? What is the difference between the different types out there? Thanks in advance for your help :)
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Using BCP [03 Aug 2006|10:31pm]

I am currently starting my 3rd month on BCP to try and regulate my periods (my dr thinks I have Pcos). For those of you who have also been put on BCP to try and get regulated how long were you on it? Did it make any difference in your cycles? Have any of you ttc since? I have to go back to the Dr's soon and would like to get off it but want to hear what some of you have to say about it.

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New. [06 Mar 2006|12:07pm]

[ mood | crushed ]

Hello Everybody. I'm Tanya. I'm almost 17 years old only 3 weeks left! I'm an only child and I have PCOS. My mother has miscarried 3 times, I was the only child of hers born. Ever since I was little people would ask me what do you want to be when you grow up and I always said "I want to be a mommy.".. I'm engaged to Tom we have been togeather for 15 months. He's almost 21. We've had serious talks about trying to have a baby. I know most people will say I'm too young but I want to wait until I am 18 to get pregnant. Fiancially we are able to have a child and I am finishing up beauty school right now. My only worry is that I won't be able to have a baby. I've had unprotected sex with him for 14 1/2 months and I haven't gotten pregnant. I've only gotten my period once thanks to birth control. When I was 13 and found out I had PCOS I cried and attempted to kill myself because I thoguht I'd never be able to have a baby. All my friends have gotten pregnant no problem.. after a few months with somebody they get pregnant. It kinda makes me jealous and very depressed. Because this is what I wanted all my life. and my fiance really wants to have a family with 4 kids. Is there anybody that has POCS and has tried any pills to get pregnant? If so did it work.

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Hello! [04 Jan 2006|02:30pm]

[ mood | rejuvenated ]

Hello. :3
I joined this club,because its true. I do long to be a mommy. I think children are one of the most precious things life has to offer.I'll agree it is weird that a 15 year old girl (Whos never had a boyfriend,or even been kissed) Would love babies so much.But I truly do. I'm not the right age to have children-I am old enough.XD It just wouldnt be too smart. I still have school to go through. But I do long to be a Mommy,and I always will,so I'll be staying in this club.But I'd still have a child at the drop of a hat if I had the choice to Now. XD
Until I can have my own Son,I've made a Fictional one up http://www.deviantart.com/view/27171822/ Isnt he cute? <3

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[03 Jan 2006|04:02pm]

[ mood | complacent ]

My husband and I have been married almost a year (and, yes, I know that isn't a long time). And I *really* wish we were in a position to be ready for children, because I want them desparately. But we're not and won't be for a long while -- probably almost 3 years. First of all, my husband just wants to be married for a while longer before we start trying. And he also needs to get his LPN license before he'll be making enough money for us to be able to afford kids. And he can't get in to a program, at the earliest, until August 2007, and it's a year-long program, which means we can't start trying at the earliest until August of 2008. And we're going to have a hard enough time managing on my salary for the year he's at school, just by ourselves, let alone with a baby. I also have PCOS, which comes with its own fertility problems, of course. And I'm also getting older all the time (I know we all are, but I'm 27 and don't feel I have the luxury of time that women who are younger may have). Especially considering the PCOS. We've also discussed adoption extensively, but it's also very expensive. I accept the fact the there's simply nothing we can do about trying to get pregnant or adopt right now, because we just wouldn't be able to afford a baby if I was lucky and blessed enough to get pregnant anyway, or somehow find the money to adopt one. I accept that it's just the way things have to be. I don't have any problem understanding that part of things. I'm just having trouble reconciling the fact that where I want to be and where we are are so far apart. And I just wonder what I'm going to do with myself for the next 3 years. My husband only gets mad every time I bring it up -- he says I'm hounding him about it. So I really can't (or shouldn't, at least) talk to him any more about it. And it seems like everyone else I know is trying anyway, whether they seem to be able to afford it or not. And they don't understand -- they all say that we could afford it somehow or something. Um, no we couldn't -- we can barely pay our bills as is right now, with no baby.

I'm sorry if this sounds horribly whiny. It probably does, and I know that. But I guess I'm hoping to find someone who at least understands -- someone who's not able to try for some reason, or someone with suggestions to help me deal with the wait. I'd welcome suggestions of websites, books, or anything that might help me.


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Bad idea? [16 Sep 2004|04:40pm]

[ mood | desperate ]

Ok, I'm getting desperate here. I can't go back to my RE until I pay off the $281 for the very first visit. I took the Progesterone he gave me and nothing happened (no AF). I haven't had a cycle since February. My HGBA1C came back as 10.2 and my dr. was NOT happy! I have at least lost 2lbs in the last 6 wks. We know that I am not ovulating.

Here is my predicament: I'm considering taking BC Pills as I know I have conceived on them before. This time since I am purposely doing this I would keep a CLOSE eye on everything. As soon as I think I've concieved I will call my dr. to let him know so we can take the appropriate action in order to keep me from miscarrying again.

Am I stupid?


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Confusion [16 Jul 2004|04:19pm]

[ mood | confused ]

I'm going to put this behind a cut because I don't want some people to get grossed out... but I have a question that I have no where else to turn to... so
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[10 Jul 2004|06:05pm]

Has anyone here tried clomid and it worked? Or do you know of anyone who has tried it and it worked? If so, how long did it take to conceive? My husband and I have been trying to have a baby for a year now and this month (when my period starts) we are going to try clomid. I have a three month supply of it.... do you think that it will work?? Mind you, I have PCOS.
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Discouraged (Vent) [04 Feb 2004|06:24pm]

[ mood | disappointed ]

I've been temping since Dec. 24th. and from what I can tell I'm not ovulating. I have not had a new cycle since then and on Dec. 24-27th all I had was spotting. I was so excited that I could finally begin charting but now I'm getting so discouraged.

My asthma and allergies have been better (which the dr wanted me to wait to get under control before conceiving) and I have lost a little bit of weight (around 5lbs and working on more).

I'm just worried that all of this is for nothing.

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Charting, cycles, meds, ad nauseum [29 Dec 2003|10:59am]

[ mood | tired ]

I know I don't post here much (if at all. I'm still getting the hang of this down) but I would like, if I may, to get a little feedback. I've been diagnosed with PCOS since April of 2000 when I had my 4th miscarriage. Right now I am on Glucophage XR (1500mg a day) (Just got changed to regular Glucophage 1700mg because I wasn't digesting the pills) and Avandia (8mg a day). I am also taking Vitex (Chaste Berry), Evening Primrose Oil (full moon to new moon) and Flax Seed Oil (new moon to full moon). I have been thinking of adding Magnesium to my regimen. I am also about to start on the South Beach Diet. I weigh 283lbs and am 5'3" tall. I would like to get down to around 180lbs. I don't get much exercise as most of my time is spent sitting in front of this computer (My work). I just recently started charting my cycle because I got my first moon (period) in around 4 months on Xmas Eve. My hubby and I have been ttc for 9 1/2 yrs and as I said before, we've been through 4 miscarriages (possibly more). I've never charted before and am using FertilityFriend.com. I have a basal thermometer and as soon as we can save up enough money I plan on getting a Clear Plan Fertility Monitor. So, does anyone have any advice, comments, etc for me? (BTW, I also have acute asthma {COPD} and severe allergies {to cats which I have 4 of and they are my little babies}).

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*sigh* [02 Aug 2003|08:24pm]

[ mood | depressed ]

Things are really weird for me right now. At this time last year I was recouperating from a failed IVF procedure and gearing up for cryo transfer.

I'm ready to try again.


No waiting.

Unfortunately, the pocketbook has other ideas. We don't have the money to do it right now. We can't afford a loan either. I'm not about to ask family for it.

I have spent the last 20 minutes searching the internet for a financial answer. Needless to say, I didn't find one.

Anybody have any great ideas?

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hey [25 Apr 2003|02:24pm]

I'm new, I'm 23, I'm with PCOS,I want to have a lil hippy. I've picked out my babies names... just need the baby! My husband and I are ready. It's nice to have this community.
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I apologize if this is a cross post [09 Feb 2003|04:37am]

"The American Society of Reproductive Medicine (ASRM) has defined infertility as the inability to conceive after one year of unprotected intercourse. After one year, 80% of healthy couples of child bearing age are able to achieve pregnancy."


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Mommy's arms are empty... [05 Feb 2003|03:17pm]

[ mood | depressed ]

Today would have been my baby's due date, had I not miscarried last June. I'm feeling very sad and "alone" today...

Today is the due date
For you to be born.
But all I have is
An emptiness to mourn.

Mommy's arms are empty
With no baby to hold.
My heart feels heavy.
The weather is cold.

This should have been the time
For the anticipation of your arrival.
But no one seems to be remembering
To share in my grief or sorrow.

You were a life
Created from love.
You were a gift
That was sent from above.

But Mommy's arms are empty
With no baby to hold.
My heart feels heavy.
The weather is cold.

Your nursery is still the computer room.
The bassinet lent from your cousins is still in a box.
Your pooh-bear blankies remain folded
With tiny baby clothes and your cute little socks.

There isn't a day that goes by
When I haven't thought of you.
Calculating how far along my pregnancy would be
Or how big my tummy would be getting, too.

But Mommy's arms are empty
With no baby to hold.
My heart feels heavy.
The weather is cold.

I know that you have gone
To a much better place.
Knowing that the grace of God
Is shining on your face.

I see another baby.
I think of you then, too.
Wondering what you'd have looked like
As you giggle, cry, and coo.

But I will never know these things
Because you will never be here.
But in my heart you'll always be
My baby, my angel, my dear.

It doesn't make it easier.
For the pain I have is still here.
I will never forget you, my little one.
That fact remains quite clear.

But Mommy's arms are empty
With no baby to hold.
My heart feels heavy.
The weather is still cold.
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My New Year Resolution [04 Jan 2003|01:03am]

Just wanted to let you know... In keeping with my New Year Resolution, I made an appointment to see an R.E. -- my first appointment is January 28. (this is where I'm going... http://www.ivfcenter.net/ )

Wish me luck and send as much *Baby Dust* as you can spare!
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"Thank you for your deposit... Please come again!" [10 Oct 2002|12:27pm]

[ mood | hopeful ]

This is what I told my husband this morning... :o) (Maybe that's TMI for y'all... sorry!) Cut for Cross Post -- Read More HereCollapse )

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AF [26 Sep 2002|01:51pm]

[ mood | sad ]

AF came today on CD32. I am so profoundly sad that there are just no words anymore to describe how my heart hurts... but I know that I don't need the words for this community because you all understand my feelings.
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Question [08 Sep 2002|09:35pm]

[ mood | frustrated ]

My husband and I are trying to have a baby. But I've been diagnosed with PCOS. Its not a severe case, but enough to make things that much more difficult. I'm on Metformin and Clomid. I'm awfully puzzled though. I'm charting my cycles, now that I am on some meds that are supposed to help me ovulate regularly. I've been monitoring my ovulation for the past 5 days, and everytime it comes up with an "almost positive, but not quite yet". I should be ovulating by now. What could be wrong? Should I try a different brand of ovulation kit? Is the doseage on my medication wrong? Am I really just not ovulating? I've also been having hot flashes and off and on cramps. I could be side effects of the Clomid. But I'm confused. Anyone have any input?

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Disappointment [26 Aug 2002|04:26pm]

[ mood | crappy ]

Nope, wasn't successful this month... :o( Aunt Flo arrived this morning.

I'm in desperate need of some encouragement. I'm starting to get to the end of my "hope rope." It feels like I'm never going to have this baby that I wish for with all my heart. I'm very discouraged and disheartened. I'm even feeling like, even if I do succeed in getting pregnant, I'll probably lose it again like all the others, so what's the use of even trying?

Help me, friends. I'm feeling really rotten.

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